getting a CT scan is stupid, and it's stupid that 6 weeks ago yesterday you were in that exact same machine and the entire world shattered. It was overwhelming. It didn't help that the nurse asked if you were my dad. Yes. Now please get on with it. 

I came home and just went to sleep. 

It's probably best I don't live there anymore. My mom keeps having people come up and hug and cry and I'm not sure I could handle that. I know grief from others is a good thing but I can't imagine facing it when you're trying to buy something at the store and someone just comes up and boom, time for emotion!

A few classes have opened so it's time to start strategizing.